Aaaargh!

It's been a long time since I've updated my blog but I find I can do nothing else. I am currently stuck at my desk doing work that is of no interest to me AT ALL and I just can't find the motivation to continue.

I guess if you do something long enough and often it enough it will grow tiresome but for me there are added pressures that stop me from making any headway.

I have something on my mind, or rather a series of somethings. Most of them good. So good in fact that I can think of nothing else. Each minute I sit at my desk is a minute of agonizing torture I have to endure. Waiting, waiting, waiting... Watching the second hand slowly count down the time until I can leave.

I wish I could say what is on my mind. In fact I have so much I want to get out I may just start up a new, anonymous blog so that I can write my thoughts freely.

There is something I desperately want. To that end there are places I need to be and things I need to be doing and they have nothing at all to do with my daily life. I wish they did. I wish I could just throw this life away and replace it with the new one I have designed for myself but... Nothing is ever that easy.

I wish I could say more. I wish I could spell out all of my plans and all of the things that have made me this way.

Like christmas presents under the tree, you know there are wonderful things just waiting to be unwrapped but you can't touch them, not yet, and the closer you get to the day the harder it is to control your excitement. I feel like today is Christmas Eve and the wait is killing me!

I want an Oompa Loompa daddy and I want it now!

I can't sit here anymore. I need to get out!

I need to be living a different life. I know what I want and how to get it, so why am I sitting here watching the clock tick away precious minutes and hours of my life?


Aaaargh!